There’s a voice - a feeling I get. The secret one that tells me I’ll never love again. The one that tells me that I’m unlovable. That my friends don’t value me, that I’m wasting time and failing my career. The voice that says every little thing I’ve ever loved about myself was changing and that I’d never find what made me special again. The terror accompanied by the weight of being seen.
And then I started realizing that this all a part of my 20s - navigating the world of adulthood. Being in a completely new city starting a career I’d left my home behind for, trying to find myself (usually through other people) and stumbling completely along the way. The freedom of adulthood meant that everything around me would open up with the caveat that I’d have to navigate a lot of it without my support system right next to me.
And so I started documenting the everyday things - my relationships, my grief, my love, my loss. I documented the things that hurt by trying to find beauty in the lessons of not having things work out. This became my second therapy - recounting every little thing that just couldn’t leave my system. And maybe in some way, navigating my own pain could help others recognize their own. This is an ode to my early 20s. This is part of my journey to be loved.
(Be)loved is a compilation of comics of moments in my relationships and navigating my identity. The zine will be 5.25” x 8.125” with 28 pages of comics, most of which will be new content I haven’t shared.
Risks and challenges
The biggest challenge for this project are possible delays in printing additional zines, extra merchandise, or shipping. The zine is almost completed and will ideally be prepared to ship by January 2019.Learn about accountability on Kickstarter
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