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20 City Book Tour kicks off in Providence, RI TONIGHT!

Several months ago I was invited to be apart of a poetry night in Providence where I was invited to read from my new book Finding Your Force and it wasn’t until I got on the bus that I started to feel the SIGNIFICANCE of reading in Rhode Island. I had no idea that my body would respond the way that it did. I was incredibly nervous (beyond my speaking in front of people nervousness) this was something else. This was about returning to where I grew up. This was about going back to the state where many transformations happened for me both good and bad. Rhode Island is where I became a mother and then the place where I would become a woman. And so it was heavy. That moment was amazing for me. That’s when I realized that Providence was probably THE MOST important reading of my life and with so much LOVE and GRATITUDE I return to the scene of the crime and where my greatest blessing was born. I am excited to share my story where so much of it is formed. 


Sometimes we are called to return and face things in order for forgiveness and healing to happen~ 

Event Date: Friday, February 10, 2012 

Event time: 7:00pm – 9:00pm 

Venue: Books on the Square 

Address: 471 Angell Street Providence, RI 

 Additional Information: Reception to follow Web site: 

Rhode Island writer returns for a book reading: 

This is a very special stop on the authors 20 City Tour. Alicia attended Warwick Vets, graduated from Pilgrim High School, attended Rhode Island College and went on to work for the Providence School Department for many years before leaving to pursue her dream of writing in NYC. Join us for a special reading. 

FINDING YOUR FORCE is a memoir written in the form of a love letter to a daughter. In this intimate conversation we journey into the darkest parts of Alicia's soul. We walk with her as she digs deep underneath the ruins where all her secrets are kept. 

Santos is being called on an excavation to stop running and face those moments that have transformed her from surviving rape, healing through loss and coming out as a lesbian. This is a journey about life, death and rebirth. Alicia tells her daughter a story that is raw and heart wrenching. It is not a love story but definitely a story of love. Santos is a Writer, Producer and Playwright who is passionate about writing works that empower and inspire women to find their voices. 

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Never Give UP! Message for 2012

What does it take? It takes a tremendous amount of faith in ones ability to push passed ALL DOUBT! As I begin preparations for my twenty-city tour I have encountered some blocks. BUT I AM NOT GIVING UP!

When you don’t have a publicist and team you are forced to try and make your way on your own. And when the plan isn’t working we must readjust the plan NOT QUIT midway. So I have decided that my 20-City Tour will still happen but I am relying on YOU to help me get there. I can’t do this alone.

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Message from Bogota: Let there be LOVE

Meditation 18: Let There Be Love

At 6:00pm on New Years Eve he transitioned from this place. His name was Alfonso. He was Colombian and he was my friend. Alfonso was a ray of light. Whenever I came to Bogota to visit I would make it a point visit him at El Parque Lourdes, where he worked in Champinero. Alfonso sold minutes in the plaza to people who couldn’t afford cell phones.

HIS LIGHT… that is what I will remember most about him. How he would begin screaming in excitement when he saw me coming. He was proud that I finished writing my book. He couldn’t wait to read it in Spanish. A brain hemorrhage put him in a coma. He was my age forty. Young full of life and filled with SO MUCH LOVE. He was an expression of love and joy that he shared with everyone he touched. I am happy that the memory I have of him was dancing, smiling and joking with me in the park.

We were walking into a nightclub when we heard the news that Alfonso was no longer with us… He was taken off the machines Saturday and his spirit left his body. I danced that entire evening in his name.

How will you live your life in 2012 and the rest of your days?

To Aflonso… donde quiera que estes… yo se que estas bien.. mi amigo te adoro… eres luz… se que estas con tus guias espirituales… tu angel de la guardia… se que estas mejor que nosotros… nos veremos un dia… que dios te bendiga… en pas descanses… besote tu Alicia

Let there be love… that’s what I have been thinking about… this is my word for 2012 – LOVE!!!

Love is what we must strive for… not just love in what we do… our dreams… me as a writer, you as a dancer, actor, singer, mother, father, businesswoman/man… not just at work… but to all those in our lives… all those we walk by… even those we don’t know.

LET THERE BE LOVE of humanity, animals and the environment. We all deserve to be loved and we all have so much love to give. Tell someone you don’t know that you love them… people are so afraid to show love, share love, give love… don’t be afraid… no one can take your love away from you. It’s yours to give.

If no one has told you they love you today allow me to be the first… I LOVE YOU!!!

And so it is!

I AFFIRM: Today I will be an expression of love in all that I do. Today I will be love with everyone that I meet. Today I will allow love to be my state of mind.

Official kickoff of FYF 20 City Book Tour~

Update #19: Official kickoff of FYF 20 City Book Tour~

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Finding Your Force A Journey to Love~ 20 City U.S. Book Tour~


20 cities….

1.     Maine

2.     Massachusetts

3.     Rhode island

4.     Connecticut

5.     New York

6.     Georgia

7.     Virginia

8.     Washington DC

9.     Pennsylvania






15.New Mexico




19.Washington State


That’s what I decided I would need to do to get the word out about my new memoir Finding your Force.

People dream of the huge book deals and wait to have their manuscript accepted or rejected by countless publishing houses. Not me. I don’t have that dream. My dream was to write my first book… and I’ve done that. I have always dreamt that I would be the one to publish my first novel… and I’ve done that. I wanted my first book to enter the world without censors and filters or be controlled by editorial, marketing, and sales teams… and I’ve done that as well.

This book was written in my voice under rules set by me. And the end result is this beautiful love letter Finding Your Force that was written to my daughter Courtniana~ 

Courtney is my muse and greatest inspiration. Now that my memoir is in print we want to share our story with the world. We want hundreds of thousands of people to read this story because we know that you will relate.

We know that OUR story is YOUR story! We are a human family!

“We are spiritual beings having a human experience~”

Why should men read Finding Your Force~

“So I have now read this book a few times, and I'm wondering why, because it is a difficult read to say the least, but definitely an important read, and so I keep going back. Clear your calendar because this book is going to keep you in it's grasp and send you off with markings tattooed inside of your soul that will stay with you for a very long time. Alicia shares her life with us in a way that may save a lot of people from some of the darkness that she has experienced in her lifetime, but as I get to the end of the book, I realize that this is a story of redemption and truly a journey of love, of survival and of someone who has learned to not only DEAL with some serious challenges in her lifetime, but who has also figured out a way to actually THRIVE, and at the end of the day, THAT is what the book is about, and why this letter to her daughter is so moving. Alicia has it figured out, and it's a gift to be able to watch a hero share herself and lead us all to a better existence. A beautiful, honest, compelling and entertaining novel. So HUMAN, there's a piece of all of us in Finding Your Force, and Santos is, indeed, a force to be reckoned with. I look forward to reading more from her.” ~ Amazon review

Why women should read Finding your Force~ 

It takes a warrior to survive abuse of any kind. It takes bravery to show your scars to the world and self-confidence to acknowledge the beauty of sculpted wounds. It takes strength to heal. In this Memoir Alicia Anabel Santos takes you on a harrowing journey of self destruction and pain, leaving no stone unturned, she faces her truth with dignity. In a series of letters written over a ten-year period, Anabel-Santos addresses the people who have affected her life the most. Many of these letters are painful to read but significant in excavating the hurt and rebuilding the foundation. This is a tale of hope, redemption, self-love and positive affirmations. A legacy of survival, from Mother to Daughter. ~ Amazon Review


Finding Your Force is filled with themes that relate to all of us. This book is filled with images, journal entries, personal letters and the darkest moments of a human beings life. But in the end how even the worst of experiences we can be our own heroes... and those darkest of moments hold the most important life lessons.

This book is for everyone… from teens to elders there is a message for you in this book. To read out you can bring me to your city visit my blog: Finding Your Force 20 City Book Tour~

Help bring me to your city!

Thank you so much for supporting my campaign.

Peace, Light and LOVE

Alicia Anabel


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