Last July, I started a weblog about drawing everyday for a year. I didn't really even understand blogging. I still don't. However, I have found that the process of drawing and writing has really allowed me to prove myself in ways that traditional presentations of creativity simply, well...didn't.
The thought of art school and portfolios and juries and queries and curricula vitae...well, it has never seemed an accessible world to me. I have always been appreciative of the underground press movement and even tried to write a zine when I was in college, a decade and a half ago.
However, I think it was my roommate's criticism of my drafted cover art that killed it.
I am 34 years old. I have written almost a quarter of a million words this year. I have drawn 400 pictures.
This past Spring, my dog died, my job started to feel like a job, and my two children (ages 6 and 8) went for a beach vacation with their father and his new friend. I stayed home and emailed myself.
I realized I was sad because I had been too busy to give my beloved best friend a proper burial. I realized that I was happy that the kids were off having fun with people who enjoyed one another's company. I realized I still wanted to write a zine.
And then I realized I had already written a book.
I have never been particularly skilled at appropriate self-promotion. I am a little bit atypical in a lot ways. However, I have started to figure out that 'typical' is a myth.
I am making it my own.
I intend to make my book with my own two hands, to the full extent possible. For things I am not able to do, such as copying, I am going to support locally owned and operated businesses.
Ideally, I will be able to barter some ad space on my site for copying services, but I am budgeting $250.00 for a small run of 50 black and white Figuring Faith: Volume One. The additional one hundred dollars will be spent on things such as a really great stapler, a new bookbinding awl, perhaps a custom stamp or materials to do a small lino cut.
HOWEVER: I would really very much like to include at least several pages of color copies of the drawings and images that have illustrated this past year. I would also like to be able to take the time to make each book a little bit beautiful in it's own way, a work of art in itself.
The thing that I appreciate most about DIY bookmaking is that there is so much flexibility in media that even projects with small budgets can be stunning. A volume bound-by-hand-one-of-a-kind can be made for free, using found objects...it is the time and attention and intention that makes it valuable.
This project is not only my own. As potential backers, it is yours as well. I will be happy and grateful for any support I receive. However, it is ultimately funding that will decide whether or not I crank out 50 b/w zines or if I make fifty unique volumes, themed around bewilderment...each book a work of art in and of itself, a study of a faceted wonder.
I have really enjoyed developing this Kickstarter project and have appreciated the way that projects seem to develop as they are funded and that there is so much opportunity for secondary endeavors.
As a maker who is prone to multi-task in multimedia, feeding projects with other projects, it is often difficult to identify appropriate sources of support/recognition/income.
I am a writer, an artist, a mother, a gardener, an unemployed college-educated highschool drop-out who has been in a locked psychiatric facility and who has, much more recently, taught Sex Ed. in public middle schools. I like to play banjo.
My palms are tattooed with wings.
Clearly, I have a lot of stories to tell.
Thanks so much for recognizing a diamond in the rough. For that, I surely am.
- (9 days)