I wrote my book Grasping at Self Worth to share the very raw honest story of my experiences in Tokyo with the first girl I had ever loved.
The world is shrinking and our cultures are beginning to mix together creating more interesting people with diverse backgrounds. The majority of us are happy about the change and enjoy learning new ways of looking at things. But there are some who would rather keep people the way they were and that was the situation I had came across with members of my ex girlfriend's family. She was a Japanese girl I met at University in Canada. She was beautiful and smart, studying as an international student. I was two years younger than her and…white, which was a big no no for her mother and older sister. They forced their strong negative views of how she was being immature and not thinking of her future by dating me.
I thought that I would be able to bring them over to my side by being polite and sympathetic but all that happened was I lost all my confidence and became reliant on her and her families approval to validate me. I completely fell apart and now looking back am frustrated that I allowed myself to fall so low.
I wrote this book to show all my experiences as truthfully as possible and feel I have accomplished that. I don’t come off as a saint and my ex doesn't seem like some monster. We were two young people going through a very difficult situation and both dealt with the pressures poorly at times.
When it ended all I had left inside of me was the confusion and frustration of what happened. I couldn't understand how I fell so far and why I was driven to feel so pitiful. Now I believe sharing my story, in all its passion, embarrassment and insecurity I can help others who may have gone through a destructive relationship as well as entertain.
The book is done! All that is left is to actually publish it. I have spent the last year writing full time and putting much of my own funds towards the project and my faith in it. I have now ran out of money and the money you contribute will go towards final edits, printing, and shipping the book (please add an additional $20 for shipping outside of North America)
- $30,000 - The book will be available in kindle format!
The initial funding goal offers the book in .pdf making it the most commonly used format. Easy for supporters to use on one of their devices. Also I am a firm believer that when a book is bought the buyer has the right to share it. now with eBooks that sharing can go a little crazy but I decided to stick to my guns and offer bundle pricing for people who feel hard work deserves compensation. if we can raise an additional $10,000 I can make the book available in a format that people who love their eReaders would prefer as well!
- $40,000 - Video series revisiting the places mentioned in the book!
If we could double the initial funding target it would be amazing, and would build momentum to tripling it! to hit $40,000 would show that a book like this where all my insecurity is completely out there for someone going through a hard time can read about and relate to. Hopefully through that connection some of the pressure of their own situation would feel manageable. By hitting this stretch goal I will be able to do a one week long, daily video diary visiting the locations in the book that I so passionately talk about. Zojo Temple with Tokyo Tower over its shoulder as the sun sets standing in front of the large red gate. The preschool where kids laughed as I worked in solitary building them a water feature. AND the hotel lounge on the top floor where I met the beautiful girl in the red dress, another English speaker and a new friend that turned out to be a dangerous situation.
Thanks for your support and contribution!
If you have any questions about the project feel free to ask by emailing me directly