Boy's I've Kissed & Hated is an anthology of poems, narratives, and sentiments by and through Arti Gollapudi. Through the fumbling and flailing the reader will (hopefully) be able to leave this collection encouraged to fearlessly lean into failures and dreams.
Who is this chick- Arti?
Arti Gollapudi is a comedic performer and writer. After earning her undergrad degree at Berklee College of Music, she went to Brooklyn to be a few steps closer to her roots in NJ. She spent her first years entrenched in random jobs and suppressing her voice. After emerging from an abusive relationship, she took to comedy to find a medium to discuss her experience with sexual assault and her own insecurities. She hosts a show over at Union Hall called Yourself Your Body which is a show dedicated to dismantling stereotypes about body and mental health issues. She also writes and performs her show Boogie on the Brink at the Slipper Room which is a show depicting a scatterbrained approach towards dealing with trauma and grief in isolation. The show features music and even a little devil puppet which is all to say- stylistically Arti mixes discussing personal struggle with absurdity.
While performing stand up, she self published an early version of Boys I've Kissed & Hated then other booklets of poetry such as Awkward & In Rage and Emotional Slut. Poetry and writing was a way to place physical copies of her comedy into the hands of different communities. Thus leading to this larger project re-purposing the title Boys I've Kissed & Hate.
What is this even?!?!?
This project is a mix of old and new poems and narratives re-edited. This new version emerges with an in depth look of being hyper aware of the affects of trauma and an admittance of messily dealing with grief. It is also a love letter to my friends who have endlessly cared for me in moments where I thought I was alone. It is a love letter to anyone else who has felt ashamed and powerless and who have spent countless mornings eating leftover pizza in bed while crying and watching bad TV.
The size of the book itself will be the size of the latest iPhone so you can always have a little copy to throw in your clutch for those awkward family weddings.
What are you doing with our money?
- cover costs of printing the actual book
- paying the cover artist Erin Maloney for her beautiful work
- pay for entertainment, food, drinks, etc. for launch party at Kickstarter's HQ space in Greenpoint, Brooklyn
- cover costs of extra copies of book to sell at zinefests as well as to ship to other book stores
- make money for bills- to be fully transparent I am hoping to make a small profit. As a person who lives alone, holds several jobs for income purposes, with student loans to pay I am hoping to make a small profit to at the very least pay my monthly internet bill! Could you even imagine!?
This will be pretty simple- through July 2019 I will be editing and piecing together the moving pieces of the book. Then, by beginning of August the book and cards and totes for the rewards will be sent off to get made/print. September 19, 2019 will be the date of the launch party and when I will start mailing out the goods. And voila! Imagine me as the Tom Cruise of queer comedic poetry (without the scientology crap) running out of a building fire- "mission accomplished!"
Risks and challenges
The challenge of this project is the full responsibility of it being on one person (me, ugh)- from choosing where to print to the writing and book design itself the production is a one woman challenge. Between balancing the production of this project and my other forms of work/income, I will be taking personal risks (using my personal time, balancing performances and shows with piecing this together, spending days on my computer versus lounging on the beach therefore risking my summer aesthetic). I don't come from a design background or any visual arts background so designing this myself in an "odd" book shape (size of latest iphone so you can carry it around wherever you go) may also be a challenge.
I will overcome by using the money I receive from this kickstarter to help me stay financially afloat and also pay for the printing of the book. I also am a google calendar expert and will be efficiently managing my time to ensure this book gets out on the date promised!
- (25 days)