I have decided to fatten this book in content and story.
But first, an explanation of the title:
When Søren uttered the words, "Take your time loving me," I understood them to mean, "Do not love me simply because I exist and I am yours. Love me because you are taking the time to understand me for who I am and all that is within"
Take Your Time Loving Me will now dig much deeper into my work and will begin in 2006 and end with the work that has yet to come through 2014. No matter the chapter, my work always delves into a certain "Otherness" that takes myself and my family into fantastical lands. Early images were shot with a Hassleblad, newer images taken with a digital Nikon - all so far have been transformed into Polaroid emulsion lifts.
A brief explanation of what is to be included.
2006-2008 with The Illness Apprentice - The story of self discovery and the idea of mastering all of the selves within. A family of one.
2009 - Come Wander With Me - These photographs were the result of my being a lone mother to a new child while my husband is away for a year in Iraq. These photographs begin in Iceland where we were wed and wander down the peculiar internal wonderings of how to possibly nurture a child all alone.
2010 - There is a Great Deal We Do Not Need to Know This exhibit included work of mine and paintings of Walter's that we made when he returned from Iraq.
2010 - The Only Place Left - The result of my husband's return and our having another child, and the fantastical ideas of giving the boys any absurdity they may desire (be it a tiger or a star from the sky) because as it seemed then, upon Walter's return and the addition of a new baby, we had all that we could possibly want. The time was ripe for the dreaming big.
2007-2010 - The Leavings - Images that are bits of ideas that show up from time to time and have no specific thread of a story.
2010-2014 - Take Your Time Loving Me - a dissection of the result of no longer being one, but one of many and the discovery of the brilliance of little beings whose simplistic thought processes, untethered by education and experience, are ultimately words so succinct and wise. Beginning, of course, with Søren's words "Take Your Time Loving Me" and ending somewhere with the declaration of Silas (now just 3), "Mama, when I am as big as you, I will be a different me."
Below are some examples of the work:
The Illness Apprentice Nos. 1 & 2 (cropped), 2006
The Fall and the Gathering of the Leaves No. 3, 2006
The Woodsman, 2007
Iceland No. 1, 2009
Widow's Watch, 2010
All Is There For the Knowing, 2010
We Were Victorious Often, 2010
We Keep One Eye Behind Us, 2010
A portrait of Søren with the eye of my Grandmother (extracted from her wedding portrait) in an olde Victorian optometrist's lense held up to his own. A look back for him, forward for her...
THE STORY, AND HOW THIS CAME TO BE
This project, like most, crept up on me. It began with the birth of Silas. Søren was 2 1/2 exactly and Walter and I laughed with relief and curiosity as Silas lay in my arms. But in that same moment I was consumed by a vision of the two boys as olde men, rocking in paint chipped chairs upon a paint chipped porch, chattering away. Except what I heard was silence as I stared at their gaping, black, toothless mouths, and it wrecked me, for they were old and I was gone. I will not witness my boys rocking and reminiscing. It is a natural progression in the shedding process, but a devastating one nonetheless— to realize my mortality is to realize my children’s.
Some of the ﬁrst images began as I, standing ﬁrmly in the sand, stared into the sky at Libra and Aries, half expecting a diagram of my boys, or a how-to of sorts, to come ﬂuttering down.
A year or so after the birth of Silas, when the four of us approached the Ocean’s Edge of Assateague Island, Maryland during a hurricane to take another photograph, the project began to beckon. Though I partly feared our boys, so small, would be whisked away, the photograph had to be taken. We darted my wedding dress to the sand, and I, free from a not-so olde skin, descended to the water. A christening of sorts - I expected to emerge in another skin. This was the ﬁrst I became aware of the actual ‘shedding’, though I have been shedding skins and roles all of my life.
And it continues. Søren, now ﬁve, likes to begin sentences with, “When I was four…”
Sometimes I can barely move for all the husks and piles of past skin surrounding me. This piling up of skins, The Othernesses, The masks. This series of images does not concern an actual molting but rather intimations of sheddings-to-come. If anxiety or anticipation precedes a known impending shedding, and anger, regret, or elation presents itself upon the discovery of a husk in the rearview mirror, it is fear, in all its varying shadows, that dominate auguries of sheddings-to-come.
Of course I wouldn’t give up my boys for any other life. Though yelling happens and a madness. And crying and feeling shitty. And feeling good. And love, so much love. It is so crazy to dissect and understand and accept my roles. But it is all here, happening, and quite real. Søren and Silas call upon me to play a game, draw, go to the park, all good things, but not all of the time. I cannot pee without company. Sometimes the sounds of two boys shouting is so loud in my head that I lose sight of where I am, if I am. Transformation must happen and does happen. And once each remarkable moment passes, it transforms into an image which I must capture.
A narrative has begun to make itself apparent. Each segment appears to me amongst a sea of images. My task is to recreate what I see. And this book, Take Your Time Loving Me, is that journey.
New ideas continuously emerge as I discover the sheddings and the masks of the multiple versions of me. I have stitched fetuses, chalked stars, re-skinned my skin and spun ring-around-the-rosie. I have envisioned, sketched, and written ideas. I have gathered much and shall continue to do so.
...But I must be cautious. I do not wish to look up from this one year from now and ﬁnd my boys in entirely new skins. There is so much I do not want to miss so I must take Søren's advice, and take my time loving. It is so easy to identify the love that exists between parents and children, but much more of a challenge to take the time to understand what that means.
This is for Mothers.
And humans of all kinds.
I am raising money primarily to pay for the publishing of the book. Additional costs include film, film processing, test printing, props and materials for objects that I will make and gather for photographs as well as help from others who have skills and resources that I do not -that will help make this happen. Funding will also cover a portion of cost of the materials that will go into the making of the rewards.
Not included are traveling costs that I will hopefully incur to be able to see this project through. I envision many of my images taking place somewhere in the Nordic Countries (where Walter and I were married!) as well as road trips in America and other unforeseen wanderings.
Please remember, Kickstarter funding is ALL OR NOTHING! So in order for this book to exist, I must reach my goal. Spreading the word to your friends, family and others who may enjoy this project would be much appreciated!
6.78” x 8.78” Vertical format
64+ pages of text and photographs
My plan is to have the book completed in 1 year from now.
Take Your Time Loving Me, the photography book will be shipped in November 2014.
All other rewards will be shipped in November 2013 at the campaign's end!
IF YOU WOULD LIKE MORE THEN ONE REWARD:
Add the total of all rewards desired, pledge on any of the objects (unless you want an object that is limited - in this case, pledge on limited object) for the TOTAL amount.
REWARD NO. 1 - Thank you and peek at the progress of the project.
REWARD NO. 2 - Take Your Time Loving Me postcard with a handwritten thank you!
REWARD NO. 3 - Linen Handkerchief silkscreened with Take Your Time Loving Me
REWARD NO. 4 - Anselm Bookbinding Kit
Top Photo: Anselm Bookbinding Kit. A Peg and Awl product made in Phila PA -
Bottom Photo: Completed and used Anselm books.
REWARD No. 5 - A 1st edition signed copy of the book Take Your Time Loving Me!
REWARD No. 6 - Somewhere Something 8x10 giclee print - Edition of 100.
REWARD No. 7 - Take Your Time Loving Me 8x10 giclee print - Edition of 100.
REWARD No. 8 - TWO 1st edition signed copies of the book Take Your Time Loving Me!
REWARD No. 9 - Hand bound journal covered with leather from an antique billfold and fabric from a Victorian quilt. 4 available. 3 1/4 x 2 1/2, 78 pages.
REWARD No. 9.5 - Hand bound journal covered with leather from a Victorian boot and fabric from a Victorian quilt. 2 available. 3 1/4 x 2 1/2, 78 pages.
REWARD No. 10 - Hand bound journal covered with leather from an vintage jacket and fabric from a Victorian quilt. 4 available. 3 1/4 x 2 1/2, 78 pages.
REWARD No. 10.5 - Wolf & Stars ring intaglia in white bronze (also shown Reward No. 14 - Posey ring in silver)
REWARD No. 11 - Hand bound journal covered with leather from a vintage sofa and fabric from a Victorian quilt. 4 available. 4 3/4 x 3 1/4, 78 pages.
REWARD No. 11.4 - Peg and Awl's newest bag the Croaker Sack - available here first and as a limited run with depression era indigo feed sack lining the interior pockets. Go to our Etsy shoppe, Dry Goods section for more details and images.
REWARD No. 11.5 - Take Your Time Loving Me 8x10 giclee print - Edition of 100 and TWO 1st edition signed copies of the book Take Your Time Loving Me!
REWARD No. 12 - Limited Edition version of the book Take Your Time Loving Me.
REWARD No. 12.5 - Posey ring in white bronze. (shown above in silver and below in gold)
REWARD No. 13 - Wolf & Stars intaglia ring in sterling silver.
REWARD No. 14 - Posey ring in sterling silver.
REWARD No. 14.5 - Wolf & Stars AND Posey ring together in white bronze for $165 (Normally $185)
REWARD No. 15 - Incunabula 16 x 20 giclee print - Edition of 25 (detail - full image shown above)
REWARD No. 16 - Take Your Time Loving Me giclee print 16x20 - Edition of 25. (image above, reward no, 7)
REWARD No. 16.5 - Wolf & Stars AND Posey ring together in sterling silver for $225 (Normally $250)
REWARD No. 17 - Wolf & Stars intaglia ring in 14K gold
REWARD No. 18 - Posey ring in 14K gold
REWARD No. 19 - Large hand bound hard covered book with hand stitched headbands and covered with leather from an antique Eastman Kodak camera case, bits from a Daguerreotype frame and leather from a vintage jacket.
I have been asked for years to make available the large tomes that I make for myself. These are the truncated version of what was (they got smaller once I began carrying boys around as well) but still a massive bulk of pages. An impressive way to challenge your storytelling. Your grandchildren will love you for it.
REWARD No. 20 - 1 of the two tomes in the back - More photographs to come. Middle book covered in antique French spats, with button holes backed with vintage strips found in an abandoned house. The one in the back is covered with leather from antique saddle bags. (If your pledge comes in before I decide which book is Reward No. 20 - you choose!)
A THING TO KNOW ABOUT KS REWARDS
You can only pledge in ONE category.
If you would like more then 1 reward, let me know! I will create a new category containing all of the objects that you wish for where possible. I will ship everything but the book in November of 2013. If you have requested a book and another reward, I will ship twice.
You can change your reward category at any time during the Kickstarter campaign.
BLOG, IG, FB Posts and Interpretations - (Thank you thank you!)
*Maker's Workshop - 4 October 2013
*Art in the Age - 12 October 2013
*Thanks to The Shiny Squirrel and Brooklyn Flea for including this project on their KS curated pages.
*Billsafi via IG - 9 October 2013
I am very partial to the idea of morphology in folklore. Tales change to fit the period and region they're told leaving a shell of the original you know and filling it with new landscapes and ideas. @pegandawl is raising money for a book called "Take your time loving me" that has a similar idea of morphology but with a more personal approach. Her project is about parenthood and the stages of shedding she goes through with emotion and experience. The book will contain photographs using masks and other props to convey the different versions of "self" to show the impact of being a parent- positive and negative.
*Rachel Kent via Facebook 13 October, 2013
For your perusal, inspiration, and participation... "Take Your Time Loving Me" A book about unexpected shedding(s). By Margaux Kent
A haunting audio-visual project contemplating the shifting face of human identity in its experience of motherhood, fatherhood, and human relationality generally.
My sister-in-law and brother are full-time crafters and artisans in Philadelphia. Here, Margaux branches out with a proposal for this interdisciplinary meditation via kickstarter, offering beautiful treasures of her own making for sponsorship!
* Elisabeth Kalogris via email, 14 October 2013
Grandmothers understand aging and loving. When Finn was born, I calculated how old I will be when he reaches various passages in his life, passages I cannot hope to share with him. Now I have two more. How can I take my time loving them? I grapple with this every day. Every day!
*Flourishing, 18 October 2013
*Marlowe's Bookshelf, 18 October 2013http://themarlowebookshelf.blogspot.com/
**Pofcfcript, 19 October 2013
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WITHOUT THEM, WHO KNOWS?
VIDEO: Andrew McGlennon
EDITING: Michael-Patrick Harrington
MUSIC: Family Band
Risks and challenges
I often leave my stories enshrouded in the mystery of the images and titles. This project, however, is fully exposed. This in itself becomes a challenge, but I believe it is a worthy story to tell, and likely quite familiar.
An unexpected challenge recently made itself apparent and will change the course of my project. My refrigerator full of expired polaroid film has finally grown too weary for life. The recent results are soft and streaky with pink explosions. I had imagined these photographs as polaroid emulsion lifts - as this is how my work has looked since 2006. But alas, as Marcus Aurelius stated, "...By the changes of the parts of the universal nature the world continues ever young..."
I shall uncover something new and am looking forward to my discovery.Learn about accountability on Kickstarter
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