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A film about recovered memories of childhood trauma. Interviews with Dr. Loftus, Dr. van der Kolk, Former Miss America Van Derbur.
A film about recovered memories of childhood trauma. Interviews with Dr. Loftus, Dr. van der Kolk, Former Miss America Van Derbur.
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We made our official goal but we still need more money!

It is more efficient (time and money) to acquire all the needed funds with this  campaign rather than doing another Kickstarter campaign later. Help me make it to 200 percent so I will have funds for color correction, distribution costs, and all other necessary expenses.

About me:

I am a survivor of child pornography. 

I didn't remember the trauma until I was 37-years old. Before that, if I'd been asked, "Were you sexually abused as a child?" I would have said no.

Twenty years ago, my aunt disclosed her recall of generational abuse. Soon images of extreme abuse surfaced for me and were confirmed by cousins with similar recollections. 

In 2014, I traveled across the nation to interview experts representing all sides of the recovered memory controversy, allowing them to ask me intimate, probing questions. I reevaluated my recovered memories, on camera. I have footage of:

  • Dr. Bessel van der Kolk, Neuroscientist/Psychiatrist, Author of the bestseller The Body Keeps Score
  • Dr. Elizabeth Loftus, Psychologist hired by the defense team of O.J. Simpson, Ted Bundy, the Hillside Strangler and hundreds of alleged perpetrators of child sex abuse
  • Former Miss America Marilyn Van Derbur, Survivor/Advocate

New one minute video about the "Church" Controlled Human Trafficking presentation I'm giving in Washington D.C. in November:

https://vimeo.com/179405667

Society does not acknowledge some forms of child abuse. Adult survivors are more likely to be believed than children, but most survivors of extreme childhood abuse NEVER feel safe enough to go public. I thank God for the fact that I am able to tell my story. 

Excerpts from the film

Starring my husband Jerry from Mary Knight 

Mary's Happy Ending  

My husband and I have already paid for much of this project (from our retirement funds). I need to raise at least $3000, which is about one tenth of the total budget. 

Most of the footage has been shot but we have three more pivotal interviews which will cost about $1500. They will be shot by Bradley Sellers, who has over 20 years of cinematography experience and whose work has been displayed on HBO, Nickelodeon, Discovery, TNT, Bravo, WB, and Comedy Central.  

Good sound is essential to the viewing experience. Chris Greene is an accomplished musician and sound designer. He holds a bachelor's degree in media production from Portland State University. He has scored a feature length motion picture and created sound for numerous commercials. His client list includes Grimm. His sound mixing fee is $1500. 

If additional funds are raised, they will be used for graphic design, music, and color correction.

What People Are Saying About This Project:

"Mary has a story to tell and the courage to tell it. It is not a pleasant story but it is a significant one. It is one she has experienced herself… Only by being specific can an artist/communicator reach out to the universal truths we each experience." Wayne Woods, NW Film Center Faculty Instructor

"When I come across the rare story that is this compelling, I know to immediately extend an offer to help and support in any way possible."   John Michael “J” Bills, Portland State University Instructor/Graphic Designer (Lord of the Rings, Avatar, ParaNorman, ect.)

"I am absolutely astonished to see the open and personal approach Mary Knight is taking with her film."  Olga Lvoff, 2014 Student Oscar Nominee

"As a studio executive and producer with more than fifteen years of experience in the feature film industry, I have met literally thousands of aspiring screenwriters in my day-to-day work and during my international speaking engagements. I have an enormous amount of respect for Mary. I amazed by her ability to handle what she went through as a child, and even more so that she is able to convert that into powerful art as an adult that can make a positive impact on the lives of victims and the conversation surrounding abuse in general." Luke Ryan, CEO/Founder, Chaotic Good LLC 

Risks and challenges

Anytime you share anything about yourself publicly you are opening yourself up to criticism. In this documentary I go public about extreme abuse. What happened to me is so bizarre that it is almost unbelievable. The fact that I am making myself vulnerable fits with the unexpected outcome of interviewing experts, some of whom find my account of my childhood "highly unlikely" to be true. I am now much less concerned about what others think about me and my recovered memories than I was when I started filming. What has not changed is the fact I am a child advocate. Since I believe this documentary will not only help adult survivors of childhood trauma but will also decrease the chance today's children will be subjected to the atrocities I experienced as a child, I value this project more than I value my life. Literally. I know I will face obstacles, but I also know I will find a way to overcome them. This means everything to me. Everything.

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