IT IS IMPOSSIBLE TO PRETEND TO DO OR SAY ANYTHING AND MY COMICS HAVE NEVER BEEN ABOUT DEPRESSION
Everything you do or say is a reflection of your environment and yourself. You can choose to blame either, both or none of these things. Maybe you can't, I have never met you.
I do not desire for anyone to feel negatively unless they enjoy feeling negatively. If you feel negatively, that is what is happening.
Imagine the next paragraph is an explanation that does not take away the pain you have felt but makes it a thing of the past. I am sorry and want to make the combination of words that will make you understand that I am sorry but I may not know you well enough to do this and I feel sorry about that but do not perceive that feeling as negative.
No longer conceive of pain and loneliness as negative sensations, but as sensations that happen to exist along with all the rest.
I know exactly how you feel, and the more you feel negatively about me or something I have said the more I identify with you as a person who feels negatively about the people surrounding them who also desire to connect with them but cannot stop themselves from expressing this in ways that might seem to make others feel negatively.
I know that you do not genuinely desire to hurt another person, or you will not desire this sometime in the future when you perceive of your pain expressing itself in ways that seem to inflict pain upon others and therefore yourself simultaneously. We feel the same way. We have empathy.
If you still feel strong and sustained negative emotions regarding myself or yourself, that may be a sign that you are going to have a much better time than you have been capable of conceiving, later.
If you feel stuck in a prison, eventually you will not feel this way, because things change. If you do not feel stuck in a prison, then you are stuck feeling that you are not stuck in a prison, forever.