WE DID IT!!! - STRETCH GOALS ANNOUNCED!
WE DID IT!!!! I am in my pajamas, in shock. We are at just shy of $6,000! That is 120% funded!! And it happened in less than 48 hours. I am overcome with the outpouring of love from all of you, my lovely, beautiful backers. It is people like you who make the world a good place to be in spite of all its challenges.
I recorded a little thank you video, please click below and watch it. It also announces my special surprise stretch goals and gives you a little taste of them...
- If we hit $7,000 (only $1,000 away) then I will record Elvis Presley 's "Blue Christmas" and release it on 12/20 (5 days after the Kickstarter ends on 12/15).
- If we hit $8,000 I will film a little tongue and cheek video of me with my/my boyfriend's Sphinx Cats, Oolong and Sencha covering Wham's "Last Christmas".
- If we reach $9,000, I will release a 3 song, digital Holiday EP on on 12/20 (5 days after the Kickstarter ends on 12/15), just in time for Christmas.
If we reach our stretch goals, I will be able to fully fund this album without going into debt a penny. How amazing would that be? As I stated in my Cost Section the total cost of the album is around $13,000. I am just trying to make it happen and pay my rent and eat at the same time. Thank you SO SO much for your support. My heart is going to burst!! <3 <3 <3
I am beyond excited to announce my plans to put out a new album, "Painted Fan" in March, 2017. To help fund this batch of brand new songs I'm launching a Kickstarter.
Since releasing my first album, "Lost Children" three years ago, some exciting things have been happening. I sang National Anthems for the Oakland A’s (watch here), got to perform with the incredible Kat Robichaud (of The Voice) in her singular Misfit Cabaret. I toured the Pacific Northwest, and performed at some fabulous local venues like The Sweetwater, The Freight & Salvage, Slim's and the Great American Music Hall with my band.
Unfortunately, while all this was going on, I had my heart broken. After my fiancee and I split, after 5 years together, he was followed by some unwise entanglements in the underbelly of the music biz. It can be a difficult place for a woman. Art is the best medicine, and I wrote up a storm as I became heavily influenced by Soul, New Orlean’s Jazz, Tango, Choral and Gospel music. The results are visceral, spooky, and hauntingly passionate.
My band-mates call my new music "Gothic Soul". I absolutely can't wait to share these new songs with you. Each one is heart-breaking view through a keyhole into the private heavens and hells love can take us to. I promise you, if you've ever had your heart broken or fallen in love, you are going to love the songs on this album as much as I do.
Here are five of the songs that will be on this album and their meanings. They've been recorded recently with my band to give you and idea of the music you'll be supporting.
1. "Shame" - Live at the Great American Music Hall. (Ricky Carter on Drums and Mike Sugar on Bass)
Everyone does things they are not proud of. Sometimes for love, sometimes in spite of it. It's the silence that keeps you captive. The guilt that keeps you in chains. The idea you are alone in your shame isolates you. You become trapped in a prison of your sins. You want others to think you're fine. You don't want to be a burden, when inside you are screaming for help. Desperate for salvation. Being a victim is not always your choice, but staying one is. Maya Angelou wrote, "I can be changed by the things that happen to me, but I refuse to be reduced by them." Honesty is what sets you free. Truth and a mirror; those are your wings.
2. "Paradise" - Live at The Make-Out Room. (Scott Amendola on Drums and Mike Sugar on Bass)
Escape. The promise of an empty road stretching to an unvisited destination. There is a spirituality in travel. It distills you. I wanted a man, so much it made me think I was losing my mind. That kind of unrequited passion is a poison, it gets into your veins and makes you sick, makes you wretched, consumes you. I wanted to get away from it. So I got on a plane, then I got in a car, then I got on a train. I started asking myself questions. The conclusion is that no matter where you are, you're there. Happiness is a choice, a state of mind. Paradise is where you create it. Here. Now.
3. "Disciple" - Live at Awaken Cafe. (Scott Amendola on Drums and Mike Sugar on Bass)
Never let yourself come under the boot of someone who says they know you better than you know yourself. That is a manipulation. When you're young, you want to know how the world really works. Not just what you are taught. Seeking that wisdom can bring you face to face with the devil. I think the devil is a magician. Full of cheap parlor tricks, smoke and illusion. His greatest trick isn't disappearing...it's making you disappear. You start to distrust your thoughts, your emotions. He whispers in your ear that your instincts are flawed. The antidote is to know yourself. Then no matter what anyone else says about you, it won't matter. "You can say what you want about me. Doesn't make it true blue."
4. "Distance" - Live at the Great American Music Hall. (Ricky Carter on Drums and Mike Sugar on Bass)
Touch. Human contact is a form of nourishment. Too little of it and we wither. Too much and we are smothered. We all need that perfect warm caress, letting us know we are seen, that we are loved. What if we are afraid to be touched? What if touch has been used against us, to harm us? What if our bodies are accustomed to the touch of one person and crave it, like a drug. Being without it feels like going through detox. Unbearable. I spent many nights alone, even when I wasn't. I would go out to bars alone with a journal. I felt utterly numb. I kept contemplating if the human heart could come back from that space. When one door closes does a window open? Or does the heart die a slow death, each door closing one by one, shedding it's hopes like leaves from a tree. Your emotions do grow back, but only after a bit of distance.
5. "A Sign" - Live at the Great American Music Hall. (Ricky Carter on Drums and Mike Sugar on Bass)
Oh honey, that big crush. That flush in your cheeks when they are near. Even in your thoughts. That purgatory of unanswered lust. He loves me, he loves me not. Until all the daisies in the neighborhood are blunt stems and the rest are running scared. Feeling pathetic about scouring social media for pictures. Elation when they text back. The depths of despair when they don't for days. Please god, just give me a sign.... :)
This poster was hand-drawn and designed by me to represent the Queen of Broken Hearts with a piano key collar.
The design was modified to be printed on a soft, stylish Next Level CVC shirt. It can be ordered in any size from XS to XL (add $2.00 for 2XL and $3.00 for 3XL).
The design can also be laser engraved onto a sleek, 6oz stainless steel flask.
Necklaces made with real ebony piano keys! They measure about 17 inches from the top of the chain to the bottom tip of the key when laid flat, with my signature painted on the back. Your choice of gold or sterling sliver chain.
Each exquisite fan I paint will be a unique piece of art using metallic gold paint. They pick up the light beautifully in person. The fans measure approximately 23 inches across. You may choose red, black or yellow. If you have a lyric preference (around 6 words or under) please let me know.
When you purchase the digital download you will receive additional photography not included in the album insert by Shiva Sharifi Photography.
1 inch buttons include a little snippet of the poster.
VALENTINE'S DAY FOR BROKEN HEARTS
On Friday, February 10th, I'll be performing all the songs of my album in concert with my band at a special secret location in San Francisco surrounded by candles. Tickets will be sold exclusively through Kickstarter. VIP packages and Date Night Packages will include tasty catered treats, complimentary beverages and cozy couch seating close to the stage.
YOUR NAME IN THE LINER NOTES
Every backer who pledges over $150 gets their name in the liner notes of the album!
If you would like to combine packages or add onto packages, please message me! It's not a problem at all. For instance, if you'd like to buy additional copies of the album, or piano key necklaces, or a poster, or if you'd like to include a ticket to Valentine's Day for Broken Hearts, I am happy to do it.
The total cost of this album will probably be around $13,000 to $15,000 depending on how things go. Big projects often take longer and cost more than you anticipate or plan for. I have already spent around $5,000. The bare minimum I need to complete it is $8,000. I am trying to raise at least $5,000.
MUSICIANS: I believe in paying my musicians fairly. This comes from being a musician myself and knowing how hard it is to make a living.
- Guest musicians will include drummers Scott Amendola, Ricky Carter, Mike Thompson (of Sit Kitty Sit) and International Looping Festival founder and artist Rick Walker
- My bassist Mike Sugar (old faithful)
- Meredith Yayanos on theremin and violin
- Erika Mulkey (Unwoman) on cello
- Kat Robichaud on backing vocals
- Danny Eisenberg (of The Mother Hips) on Rhodes and Hammond B3 Organ
- Josh Pollock on guitars (of Foxtails Brigade)
- Additional vocalists and horn players
COST = $5,550
PRODUCERS/SOUND ENGINEERS/STUDIO TIME:
- I will be recording with Vinson Hudson, who made my first record with me
- Will Chason of Hyde Street Studios in San Francisco
- And Maryam Qudus (Doe Eye) at Tiny Telephone in San Jose
COST = $5,200
MERCHANDISE: I will course need to make all of these wonderful goodies. I need to set aside money to order buttons, t-shirt, posters, flasks and materials to make incentives as well as shipping costs, venue rental fees and staff/catering for the concert.
COST = $1,350
PROMOTION: Right now, I am setting aside a mere $500 to promote this Kickstarter on Facebook. If we make our stretch goals, I can do more.
COST = $500
GRAND TOTAL = $12,600
*This does not include the Kickstarter fee of 7% to 10% of the total raised.
Risks and challenges
As with every Kickstarter, if we fail to meet our goal, we get nothing. A year's work down the tubes! In this day and age, I can't afford to make this album without at least some help.
The biggest challenge is running out of money. If that happens, it will just take more time. I need to go out and earn it myself. I've set the minimum so low, so hopefully we can raise at least half of what I need to complete the album (minus fees and materials).
If we reach our stretch goals, I can get this album to you on schedule and happily so. If we only raise the minimum, I will need to push the release date back to Fall of 2017, at least. I sincerely hope that doesn't happen. I will finish this album, but it will take longer... :(Learn about accountability on Kickstarter
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