*Photo above Mary Ann Halpin
We are funded as of last night!!!! The Feminine energy stepped in and what happened last night was breathtaking. Just when I wasn't sure what else to *do* to make this happen, the energy went wild as SHE created miracles right and left. Women upped their pledges, poured their hearts into this, shared, cheered, prayed, and IT. WAS. AMAZING.
There is one more day to go till this kickstarter closes and as the final hours approach, I request to keep on sharing this movement!!!
We have what *they* call a stretch-goal of $15,500.
This will take care of the kickstarter and amazon fees (about 10%) so that the remaining 14,000 can be used for all production costs listed out at the bottom of this page.
Thank you for continuing to share and pledge till the final hour!!!!!
Dirty Me Divine is for the fiery, feminine soul. It is red tears and shrieking laughter. Heartbreak and holy love. Opinions that spring from the depth of your belly. This is for She who aches to dance. This is for Woman. It is red lips and no shame. It is as erotic as you wanna be. It is everything that someone told you is "too much" or "not enough."
Hi, I'm Christina Dunbar. On the road to womanhood I found myself on various paths:
A quiet Good Girl, a ballerina who had to quit ballet because my breasts got too big, a wanna-be actress that felt lost in Hollywood, a stripper that never felt good enough, a woman paralyzed by fear....
And now a mentor for women + poet + performer who has learned how to freak my truth through my art.
In my journey, I had a deep transformation around shame. Body shame, sexual shame, shame around my story; these are all things that blocked my voice (and my leadership).
"Shame needs three things to grow.... secrecy, silence, and judgement." Brene Brown
As a young adult I stayed hidden. I was afraid of taking action on behalf of my soul. I was afraid of being seen and rejected. I thought I was somehow wrong. And "bad." I wanted to be a performer and artist but I got into stripping because I was seduced by the money. I ended up staying *stuck* in that industry. When I physically began to feel pain in my ovaries that medicine couldn't help, I knew it was time for inner "work" and body healing.
"Women are socialized to think their bodies are essentially dirty" Dr. Christiane Northrup
I began to learn about cultural conditioning and how that affected my self-esteem. Through the lens of patriarchy I saw myself as a "Good Girl" who should just please others (especially men). I worked with a mentor who helped me see that my life as an exotic dancer was a reflection of my belief that I couldn't do anything else and be successful at it. My confidence was shot and the confusion I felt around my body perpetuated the cycle of guilt and hiding.
I started a love affair with the Feminine. I devoured books. Carolyn Myss taught me about the emotional body. Christianne Northrup taught me about sacred sexuality. Eve Ensler told me of my right to speak about my body. Brene Brown reminded me that we are as sick as our secrets.
I learned that loss of confidence in our worth begins at a young age. 53% of 13-year-old girls are unhappy with their bodies. That number increases to 78% by age 17. As our body esteem dwindles, we lose connection with the wisdom inside our body and focus on outer perfection. Studies confirm that perfectionism, a confidence killer, is largely a female issue.
The truth is, today, woman's bodies are a commercial commodity with no real honoring of the sacredness our bodies hold.
Sexual abuse. Violence. Slut shaming. These are very real issues that reflect the rage directed at the Feminine. Sexuality is not right or wrong, sinful or dirty; nor is our femininity just about sex. It's about creativity and emotion and a deep connection to the ancient knowing that women are sacred.
Feminine wounding (feeling guilt or confusion around our sexuality and our eroticism-- the very life force of woman!) also keeps us shut down in our voice.
I saw that if I wanted to break free from shame, I would have to use my voice, get vulnerable, and tell the truth. I would have to take bold actions on behalf of my deepest desires. I began to speak up more. I shared my opinions. I showed up for my dreams. I made peace with the fact that I liked feeling sexy just for me. Slowly, as I healed my wounds, I began supporting women to do the same. I led retreats. And I came back to the artist I had locked up. I decided I was going to tell my story through a one-woman show.
I wrote a one-woman show called Dirty Me Divine.
This is an autobiographical art piece shared through spoken word poetry, dance, and story-telling. It is a liberation piece for the fierce, fiery, freaky Feminine. This is an old story. Her Story. Sex and sin. Shadow and light. Shame and silence. I want to tell my secrets. I want to look women in the eyes and share my dark, lonely spaces. And... I want to share how I came through the dark and stepped into badassery, found my voice, created a business around mentoring women and began a movement called Freak Your Truth (which is all about women making peace with their story, their body and being FULLY expressed).
The mission: to touch the souls of 10,000 women through my art on stage.
This will be done through touring Dirty Me Divine and creating a movement around women's voices being heard.
My soul, my body, my badass inner artist is fired up about this. Here's why:
I know when I tell my story, it allows another woman to honor her story.
This is how we grow a culture of feminine leaders with a voice; we come out of hiding and freak our truth.
My show isn't just about my healing. It's about women healing.
It is vital that women begin speaking up for our story, our voice, our opinions, and our body if we are to have a healthy thriving planet where women and men are seen, heard, and valued.
Through my own work of leading retreats, workshops and events for women, I have seen first-hand that fear and shame are not confined to the few. It is a cloak masking the very nature and expression of woman. And using our voice is one powerful effin' way to break free.
The power of story-telling:
I'm an artist and an advocate. I love using what I learn to support other women. I have used the creative arts (writing, storytelling, acting) to mentor women to take the stage. I have witnessed women get raw in front of a LIVE theatre audience. They have shared stories about sexual abuse, body shame & heartbreak. They have taken a stand for being sensual and confident and free in their skin. Entrepreneurs, artists, lawyers, and mamas have joined me to do this work. It has been cell-stirring, heart-skipping, goose-bump-quivering joy to see women transform by taking the stage with their soul. This "work" is the healing of the Feminine.
This is not just my story. It is woman's story.
The Dirty Me Divine script is written.
I am a seasoned performer and speaker.
And now, I request your support to reach the masses...
WHAT YOUR DONATIONS AND SUPPORT CREATE:
The money from kickstarter will ignite the Freak Your Truth movement both energetically and physically. Here's what it pays for:
- Financing the production of 'Dirty Me Divine' + an LA weekend premiere of the show: The LA showing will get the ball rolling for my tour. Funds from this campaign will pay for posters, brochures, set design, theatre rental, promo pictures, sound mixing, rehearsal space, and video production. These are major expenses that are foundational for my show.
Dirty Me Divine website: This will be used as a marketing tool to share the message of my show. It’s a calling card where women’s organizations, groups, and event planners can scope our the show and bring it to their community.
Creation of a FREAK YOUR TRUTH website. This website will feature women that have taken the stage through my programs. It will also highlight kick-ass female creatives and change-makers that use media and art as a platform for their soul voices.
- Momentum for the message. When you donate + share this message it creates a ripple effect for women. Your support = collaboration + community
BREAK DOWN OF FUNDING:
*Theatre rental :1000 for opening weekend
*Theatre rehearsal space: 1,100 (for 10 rehearsal rentals)
*Brochures for LA showing: 150
*Set design, audio, wardrobe:2,500
*Videos for backdrop of show: 1600 ($800 to fully day studio rental to shoot $800 vidoegrapher and editing)
*Acting mentor: 1000
*Dirty Me Divine website: 2500
*Freak Your Truth + Dirty Me Divine videos (pro videos of women performing + promo videos for message/movement): 2500
*Videographer to film show: 500
*Stamps, postage, T-shirts:200
YOUR SUPPORT MEANS A YES TO THIS:
- YES TO WOMEN IN MEDIA Men occupy 80 to 95-plus percent of the top decision-making positions in American politics, business, the military, religion, media, culture, and entertainment. When you make a donation to this movement, you are saying YES to supporting the Feminine. You are saying YES to women's leadership and the right to be seen + heard.
- YES TO ART Joseph Campbell says, "the world without spirit is a wasteland." And science is now showing what the wise saints intuitively knew: art heals by changing a person's physiology + attitude. Yes, art actually creates mind-body shifts that affect every cell in the body and changes the immune system response. Art and mythology are the language of the soul!
- YES TO HEALING THE SHAME CYCLE. Almost every woman I know has been affected by shame. Too much, too quiet, too loud, too sexy, too wrong, too weird, too (fill in the blank) keeps us quiet. This is a community that believes in the truth-freaking, art-making, wild-woman with a voice. And YOUR participation is crucial.
"Even to me the issue of stay 'small, sweet, quiet, and modest' sounds like an outdated problem, but the truth is that women still run into those demands whenever we find and use our voices" - Brene Brown
Christina Dunbar is a writer, poet, actress, teacher, sexy freaky feminist and social justice advocate for women. Dirty Me Divine is her deep bow to the Fiery Feminine.
Risks and challenges
Challenges: The biggest challenge is creating a full-on tour with Dirty me Divine. This project funding isn't specifically backing a whole tour, it is getting the ball rolling with Los Angeles showings of Dirty Me Divine as well as creating an on-line platform for this message.
I am a big believer in just starting. Taking bold first steps always creates some sort of momentum (it's how I've grown my business and visibility-- just BEGIN!) I trust that a tour will flow out of the major heavy lift of creating a viable, high-production value show.
Also, this project helps the message grow on-line which will support me in reaching many people across the country and building community, so that I can share the show. I have learned, through building both an on-line presence and a local network, that it is ALL about community.
I know that through the energetic creation of the show and the websites, this message will reach the women it needs to reach. And so it is!!! xoxo.Learn about accountability on Kickstarter
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