An intimate and bittersweet portrayal of the final step of my childhood dream to be a professional wrestler. Read more
This project was successfully funded on April 9, 2012.
As I began to write this I realized it's been over a year now since the full length kickstarter version of the documentary was released. In a way it seems longer than that I was sat frantically at my computer trying to ensure everyone had access to the pre-screening online link. In the time since, I have made considerable changes, based on feedback, trimming the original 118 minutes down to a tight 96 minutes, with a different narrative, in March of this year. I've entered this version into about eight documentary film festivals which is why I've held off any distribution to ensure I wouldn't lose my eligibility. Thus far I've been rejected by South by Southwest, Toronto and last week Slamdance. But there are still five more I am waiting to hear back from before spring 2014. I'm not overly upset about the rejections, as you know it's not the first time it's happened to me. I believe wholeheartedly in the movie, and that it has a story that goes beyond wrestling touching on universal themes about the human condition. I will let you all know if I get accepted into any festivals, and even if I don't I still believe once I am free to pursue distribution it will have a broader audience. I just want to reiterate that none of this would have been possible without your support. And for that I will always be grateful. It's enabled me to move into a new stage of my life, to learn a new set of skills, to tour the UK, (thanks also in no small part to the hard work of wonderful promoter, friend and comedian Chris Brooker,) and to understand the true nature of what I achieved by pursuing my childhood dream. I've further learnt from the documentary that if you have an idea, the guts to pursue it, and the determination to see it through, we live in a world where you can make that a reality. And to that end I have another idea in the works. But all in good time. For now it's another genuine thank you for enabling me to follow my path less traveled, and a poem by a fellow Englishman, Rudyard Kipling:
"IF you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:
If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools:
If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: 'Hold on!'
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with Kings - nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man, my son!"
Somewhere there is a young person on the verge of adulthood who might read this and be inspired, or someone older, who feels life hasn't turned out how they hoped, who might read this and start again. Either way, life is full of possibilities. Thank you all for letting me see it.
p.s. If you're interested in seeing the festival cut or the extras DVD with all the deleted scenes I'm flogging them off my website: Nigelwrestling.com. Some cool blogs and stuff on there too.