This is a story about all of us.
We've all lost it at one point or another. We've all had other people think we were completely nuts. We've all thought our friends and family were nuts. And we all worry about that last straw pushing us over the edge.
Our mind is what we make sense of the world with... and it is very fragile, and easily fooled.
We spend our time doing dangerous things for fun, give all our energy to unfulfilling jobs, and spread gossip far and wide. As people and countries, we've spent all of history judging, fighting, and destroying one another... mostly because we thought the other party was nuts for living the way they do, or we were paranoid of what they might be thinking, saying, or doing behind our backs, or we went mad with greed. Et cetera.
This documentary is about seeking the source of all that craziness, and figuring out what to do when it hits. How to change our minds around, and find ways to live together without pulling our own (and others') hair out.
How to be happy, and treat each other with kindness.
Is that even possible?
I decided to begin this project because I underwent an intense (and to me, largely positive) transformation during a one-time psychosis in 2004. I thought it would be educational to retrace my steps and look at each part of our crazy world– our social, medical, legal, and spiritual systems– through the lens of my own intense experience.
Also, I am an avid documentary watcher, and I thought it was only fair to share my experiences with others, after so many have been kind enough to share theirs with me on screen.
I've been busy with this project since 2010, pouring all my extra energy into what I've been told should be a great film when it's done. I have interviews with a whole passel of interesting and educated folks, from psychiatrists, spiritual leaders, chiefs of police, authors, musicians, alternative cartoonists, friends... a great variety of people helping me suss out the nature of happiness, sadness, craziness, and 'reality'.
Essentially, I’ve been doing this thing all by my lonesome, with my own gear, and with a little help here and there from friends who have spare time. It’s a huge amount of work, and there is absolutely no way I’ll ever finish it unless I get some dedicated, focused help from people who are equally passionate about the subject matter.
Your donations will go towards hiring an editor and a cameraperson.
Amazon and Kickstarter will each receive 5% for their help. Any money left over will go towards fulfilling your rewards, and miscellaneous expenses– most of which will likely be hard drives, hard drives, more hard drives, and flash cards. Also, it would be nice to hire an occasional assistant for miscellaneous needs.
Why do I need an editor? Editing is a huge job, and is really where the story falls into place. I aim to hire an editor who understands what I am trying to say, and how I am trying to say it, but who is also passionate enough about the material to bring their own flavor to the table. Also, an experienced editor is going to help me finesse the best quality picture and sound out of the hours and hours of material I have so far.
Why do I need a cameraperson? I have at least 5 more interviews I'd like to get, and I need someone to film me as I go about the business of hunting and gathering and flashbacking the people, places, and experiences of my 2-month psychosis.
In many ways, I would never have gotten this far without the kind support and guidance of Mr. Warren Etheredge, who has not put up with any laziness or half-assed efforts on my part. He is also a founder of The Film School, an amazing Seattle institution dedicated to telling a great story onscreen.
Also thanks to Greg Dember, who never hesitates to tell me when I am full of crap, and who is usually right. He and Linda Ceriello are the co-founders of the equally amazing online arts and culture mag, Artocratic.
a huge THANK YOU to the amazing musicians who have provided me with an awesome soundtrack so far. You all rock!
Greg Dember - http://www.gregdembermusic.com/
The Seattle Girls' Choir - http://www.seattlegirlschoir.org/
The U-Men - https://myspace.com/theumen/bio
Mike Dumovich - http://mikedumovich.bandcamp.com/
TAD - http://www.taddoyle.com/
I know I can pull this off the way it deserves with your help.
Thank you so much for taking the time to donate what you can, and spreading the word to your friends, families, and anyone else who is interested in figuring out how to get along in a crazy world... and finding the magic in it that makes life worth living.
Risks and challenges
If I get this funded, I will know there is a call for this film and subject matter out there, and I will stop at nothing to finesse it into a moving and visceral moviegoing experience.Learn about accountability on Kickstarter
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