What is beyond the self? What it is like to live IN our subconscious, away from the world itself? This experience is Depersonalization. Often brought about by physical trauma, drug trigger or severe injury, it causes the mind to shift in a bizarre and often dark way of perceiving and experiencing reality.
Wikipedia defines it as: "an anomaly of the mechanism by which an individual has self-awareness. It is a feeling of watching oneself act, while having no control over a situation. Sufferers feel they have changed, and the world has become less real, vague, dreamlike, or lacking in significance. It can be a disturbing experience, since many feel that, indeed, they are living in a "dream". Chronic depersonalization refers to depersonalization disorder, which is classified by the DSM-IV as a dissociative disorder."
Both of us (Me and Sebastian) have had a severely crippling experience with DPD (depersonalization disorder) in our childhoods and had become consumed by our fear of the sensation. Fear often comes as an artist's best inspiration, and for us, the filmic medium has yet to explicitly explore this phenomenon. For awhile we've wanted to make something about it, but didn't feel like any idea truly suited the concept well enough: we really wanted a representation of the detachment and loneliness that comes with the disorder.
find me gone is that exploration.
We are setting out to make a film that visually defines a subject that has scared us for so long both as a catharsis and as an art form. We think it will be a fantastic piece and can't wait to get started, only problem is we don't have the money to shoot it the way we want to: that's where you all come in.
To shoot this film the way we want is super important to us, we don't wanna have to compromise our vision, considering that this film is very close to us. We don't have a huge scope as far as budgetary requirements go, but we want to make it the way we see it. Your money will be going toward the funding of preproduction, production and post production, including festival entry fees and shipping. We need those funds to make this film and we thoroughly appreciate every cent that can be contributed to realizing our vision and we thank you for even stopping by. Not only is this about demonstrating this phenomenon visually and artistically through the film medium, but it's also about getting people to talk and understand a mental "disorder" most people are unaware of.
JS and SEBSOM
P.S. we know we have been vague with the conceptual ideas, but we wanna keep that private, but if you have any questions, concerns or suggestions feel free to contact us via the "send message" button under our picture to the bottom right :)
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