I hope you enjoy this clip of one of "Firefly in a Jar" which I will be recording with your support!
I could only lock-up my children for so long - this video was a one-shot deal! : )
It's good to be back! It's been a bit of a long road to this launch and, although I've been very, very quiet for the past decade, music has always been my home. I've been writing songs since I could talk. My first full-fledged song was called "Horses on a Snowy Day" written at around age 5 as a piano duet with my willing (or else!) little sister, Elizabeth, on the left-hand.
Then I grew up and became a singer/songwriter and recorded these three albums:
(Have a Dream? Read this!) Through difficult times, music was always there for me. And then, as if I had gone to sleep and awoken in an alternate universe, it wasn't.
Life came and kicked me in the behind. It happens to everyone. And sometimes it means that we need to put our dreams on hold. Heartbreak, loss, financial hardship and major life-changes, coalesced with new, heavy responsibilities. Drained, depleted and devoid of creativity, I wasn't even listening to music.
Writing songs became a distant and strange dream.
Over the years, bits and pieces of songs drifted through my thoughts. I co-wrote a few fun dance songs (Get Your Crazy On - not me singing!). Nothing personal. I scribbled notes, recorded snippets on my phone, and never finished a chorus or a verse.
What about all those people who told me that this life-experience (e.g. motherhood and loss) would inspire me to write? In what universe was that supposed to happen? One where we can survive on 4 hours of sleep and there are 34 hours in a day?
Jewel, I recall, when first discovered, prattled on about how she became successful because she never had a plan B. Well, Jewel, nice for you. I always thought I'd be a singer/songwriter, but thankfully, when the life merde hit the fan, Plan B materialized and saved my behind - BIG TIME. I consider myself lucky that I never had to resort to plan C!
But all the while, going along with Plan B, I continued to ignore the deep internal ache; a swirling void inside.
One Thursday afternoon, I was having a tough day at work and there was big stress on the home front. Straight out-of-the-blue came a phone call from a long-lost friend from the music biz. He asked how my music was going and told me how much he loved my voice and songs and asked why I wasn't writing or recording.
Tears erupted, spontaneously pooling in my eyes, streaming down my face. There, at my office desk, feelings of loss, disappointment, sadness and gratitude washed over me all at once.
After I hung up the phone, it hit me like a splash of cold water in the face. Now is the time when I absolutely MUST write songs. I remembered why I write. I needed my passion for music more than ever.
(A video of my song "Dream" from my 3rd album, Left of July)
In that moment, I decided that my handful of song scraps would become songs and I would record an EP. It seemed so obvious and positively overwhelming a decision.
I finished five songs. I contacted my friend and booked studio time for Spring Break.
Then, I panicked... How will I fund the album with no savings?! My last album was finished before Kickstarter existed, but I've supported friends' projects through this amazing platform and here I am, giving it a go.
Am I going back to being a full-time musician? Probably not. It isn't realistic right now, but that DOES NOT MEAN I AM NOT A SINGER/SONGWRITER. Sorry for the caps but had to shout that. You hear me, all you talented, hopeful, beautiful, writer/photographer/daydreamer/actor/dancer/cheese-maker/gardener/painters who get that, sometimes we compromise - but being a creative person is not something that ever really goes away.
Creativity is always bubbling under the surface.
Please help me record this EP! Every little bit helps - and who knows, if I surpass my goal, maybe I'll even hire a few musicians to come into the studio and will be able to promote the EP and who knows what else - I can think of tons of ways to make this album bigger and better!
This is where you come in, beloved friends and beautiful strangers.
Not sure if I've said too much or not enough. Just know that I am grateful to all of you who have supported me so fully in the past, and those of you who are here now, or just passing through. Whatever you decide, thank you.
Keep dreaming and don't ever give up.
("Soul on Fire" from my 2nd album - we are all connected!)
Risks and challenges
I hope to have this EP's worth of songs finished by July, ready to share with you! Am I being ambitious? Most certainly! It comes back to that seriously busy/heavy responsibility thing ( 2 children, full-time job, caring for ailing Dad) that leaves me vulnerable to distraction! Lord knows what life has in store. However, I will record these songs and record them well, with heart and soul and voice.Learn about accountability on Kickstarter
- (29 days)